I hate the way this feels, suddenly i'm scared to be apart, waiting, I don't know should I go or should I stay ?
And its hard to say what's on my mind and its hard to know what to do.
I wait and wait, its hurts to wait and dont know anything.
I don't know what to do or say to him, it's so hard to fight it, I can't help but feeling this way
But why don't I just tell him goodbye, Sometimes I should, but sometimes I don't.
Build up the strength to say that it's wrong, Sometimes I hate, sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I don't, Sometimes I wait for him to change
But it's okay, I've disguised the pain and I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man,
Keep telling myself that it's not worth it, I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting, This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream, No way, no way, But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare.
Sometimes I keep my cool, sometimes I let him know, Sometimes I even think I do everything wrong.
Sometimes I feel safe, sometimes I really don't, Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let him go
But I don't ever wanna leave him alone, they say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man!
Hoping he's changing, but I'm scared he's not. Can't see a way to leave, i want to stay but i want to see the end. I dont want to wait nomore.